CNY blues

CNY is less than a week away, and I have never felt so broke in my life despite I have yet to do any gambling.

I thought of starting to pick up photography. But I dun wan to get myself a DSLR. I want something analog in this digital age. Wait a minute, that is exactly the tagline for Lomography. I actually set my eyes on a very cute twin lens camera, not surprising, given that I always want something different.

But last month H&M bills and this month ASOS shopping + Phuket trip really kill me. I am living everyday by tightening my belt so that i dun feel hungry.

FML, boss ya boss, please give me bonus please.

New Year Resolution

Spend 5 minutes to write down my 2012 resolution. I think I round it up to 5 minutes, more like 3 and a half minutes. Damn it, my point is I WROTE A RESOLUTION list.

Don't be fooled by the fact that it only took me 3 and a half minutes, I have been thinking quite a while about it before I decided to penned it down in my planner.

Some of the goals are those that I should have achieve long time ago but somehow my lack of discipline and always taking the easy way out makes me a slacker.

I always pick flight in any fight or flight scenario. Not anymore, I want to be a fighter for 2012, just like Hugh Jackman in Real Steel. Oh wait, he didn't actually fight. More like I wanna be Atom in Real Steel. Wait a second, Atom was like a punching bag throughout the whole show.

I wanna be a fighter just like my dad and my mom, always fighting each other off. Seriously, they are the most dedicated fighter I come across, and they have been fighting for 25 years. No pun intended.

I will put up all the goal that I managed to achieve by the end of the year. In order to make sure I will not come home empty-handed, I cheated. Yes, I cheat in my new year resolution. I write down something easier to achieve than to not achieve it. Hahaha, go figure.

Ciaoz, peeps

i'm a heart-breaker

I'm a heart breaker and I'm definitely not feeling well right now.

I don't know how some people can go on an endless cycle of breaking another person heart. Doing it just once is enough to shatter my own heart.

So much for wanting to be a simple person not living through any complicated relationship.

Must a new opened door offset by another closed door?

Kthanksbye. And sorry to Sheirly. I'm really am.

do you love me more?

How much you love me?

A really short simple question with no definite answer. Simply because love is not something that can be measured.

If you have 2 million, and i have 2, 400, 000, is really obvious that I m richer than you; but you can't compare love in the same manner. Can u say I love you more than him just because I m willing to spend more money on you? Or simply because I m willing to sacrifice more than the previous guy?

Nor can you measure it with time. Just because you love her longer doesn't mean you actually love her more. Take that, mother fucking blur case.

And you can never weight love with tears you shed. Love is suppose to be all about happiness and feeling great. If you are crying, then something is really wrong.

KICKS

I always get happy whenever I heard Pumped up kicks by Foster the People on radio.

Pumped up kicks. Somehow it reminded me of sneakers. I always have a thing for sneakers, i blog about them here.

I own a few pairs of sneakers, none of them are over the top limited edition piece but that doesn't mean I love them less than Nike Air Yeezey. I'm more of a sneakers fans that appreciate design and practicality than rarity. 75k USD for a pair of sneakers? That is still a lot to ask despite all the money going into some charity organization. U are literally walking on money if you wear it out just to cruise around in town.

I have been telling my friends that I want to go Singapore. The ultimate reason is to go on a sneakers shopping spree. Just like gals have a thing with heels, my obsession with sneakers is of the equal level.

I want to double my collection without my mom nagging me, how ya? Can anyone give suggestion?

First pair that i use my own money to purchase
from Springfield with 50% off.

Tada, Onitsuka Tiger. The shoe laces is in leather
but lacking in term of comfortably

Puma X Ferrari purchased during 2010 CNY, bought it after
having a bad emo day.

Adidas Hardland, loved the flamboyant but the shoes durability
sucks. The lace holder detached only after 2 weeks of wearing. FML

A birthday gift from a splendid friend. Come to think about it,
is my first present since my 21st birthday.

10 10 10

Really slacking when comes to blog. What better day to kick start my passion for blogging than on the 1st day of the month?

October is better than February, April, June, September, and November. Why?? Because it has 31 days, more is always better. Right?

October is awesome because it is so near to a brand new year yet u still have the luxury to slack for another 2 months before you realize that none of your resolution made during January has achieve.

Oktoberfest is celebrated in none other than October itself, u dun even get Decemberfest, that prove how awesome October is. Haha

May everyone have an awesome month, and many more post are making their way here.

Grown up, did ya?

Hi, peeps. To prove to my mom that her son can still write in English so i purposely ditch Chinese for this post.

One thing I love about blogging is you can always check all your previous blog with a few click. Sometimes you look back to your previous entry and you get sad, but most of the time you just smile thinking back how naive or silly you were.

I'm reading my entries from last September and I realized one year is really a long period. If you follow the saying of living your life one second at a time, then you just lived Thirty one million five hundred and thirty six thousand second. To make it lot simple, is 31 560 000 second.

A year ago, I was still a student, complain about unfairness in life all the time. Hating myself for making me feeling so miserable all the time. My best friends have to listen to my stupid issue over and over and over again.

My best friend got married last Sunday, if u were to told me last September that she will be getting marry now, I will slap you for talking crap.

Never thought that falling out of love can bring such calm to my mind, no longer feeling restless just because she didn't pick up your call, no longer feeling sad listening to her lies, no longer having false hope that someday things will work out and we will live happily ever after, no longer thinking: could it be that I'm worthless hence she dun have to appreciate me.

I have forgotten that what I want was just simple happiness because I was trying too hard to drown myself in that pond of messiness. What started off as pure and simple turn into nasty and unpleasant.

I am no longer that person that live for someone else, I love whoever that is loving me and appreciate me. Thanks for making me a better person.