懦夫的道歉

我想在这里向某人道歉。

这位我一直以来都知道他的存在但不曾见过面的某人。

我一向来都觉得自己是个很少作出有愧于别人的事情，可是对于这一位某某，我实在没有面对他的勇气。我就连道歉也只能在这里。

我想如果我们两人的角色对调了，可能我也会对他很反感，甚至有一股想揍他的冲动。可是他没有打我，可能他大量，也可能他不欺弱小。

不管你有没有再来这儿，我就只想你知道，我好难过因为我把自己的快乐建立在别人的痛苦之上。

如果我们是相识的，我想结果会很不一样。

他和你是什么关系呀？呵呵，不是男友但比男朋友亲密。

除了点头认同，我还真的不知道能有什么别的回应。

我很清楚，明确地相信我还是像当初一样想看见你开心。而且我好像也真的有让你开心起来。

不过，你知道我这个半个女生的心里有多复杂吗？

凌晨3点钟的高速公路是多么的幽静。

虽然油缸里就只剩那么一点点的汽油，也不是很肯定方向，但是一旦收音机播出熟习的过门音乐，心里就只有愉快和回忆。

是“红蜻蜓”啦，虽然描述的是人慢慢长大的无奈，可是表现的方式是多么的让人轻松。连身边喝醉的朋友也兴奋地与我一起高歌。

u rather watch anime eh?

What do you want from me?!?
I am not your bf. Hell, I am more like a stranger to you when there are others around.

Is true that you can never get rewarded with what you give or sacrifice in equivalent amount, but I guess I am at least entitled to a certain degree of appreciation, right?

Say whatever you want, call me by any nickname you like, one day you will definitely regret taking me for granted. I hope you realized the mistake you make and learn from it before you lose me forever.

又是一个下雨天

又下雨了，不是绵绵细雨，带动雨点打在身上的也不是微微弱风。

如果此时我有一辆车，我会毫不犹豫地踏上油门冲向逆风雨的前方驱驶。

就算没有目的地在盘旋也不赖，我喜欢透过镜子看着迎面而来的雨滴还有雨点打在车顶所发出的嘀嗒嘀嗒声。还可以凝视街灯下的雨点灿烂地飘划过。就这么简单的，我可以把烦恼都暂时抛在脑后，至少到雨停前我拥有这短暂的愉快。

然后，我可以把车窗摇下，大口大口地呼吸着清新的雨后空气。

人呀，还是过着这么简简单单的节奏比较开心吧！但生活从来就不能这么写意，感慨呀感慨！

曾经有一个女生告诉我：有时候两个人一起踏上一段旅程，最后的终点不重要，可贵的是路上两个人经历的一切；因为终点会改变，回忆是不变的。

这位女生也让我明白了一件事：爱是美丽的，不要害怕为爱而勇敢。

身边就算有再多的人为感情的事而不开心，也不可能会影响我对爱情的看法。
只要双方都是要和对方快乐的在一起，其他问题都不足够以打击他们。

另外一个很可爱的女生曾经很感性地说：我可以有一百个原因去喜欢一个人，但我只需要一个原因就可以不再爱这个人。

昨天晚上，我看见只脏兮兮的老鼠，我立刻联想到一位很可爱的前同班同学。还记得当她看见两只老鼠在20米的前方越过走廊的那一刻，她的瞳孔张开大大的，乌溜溜的眼珠里微微带着一些眼泪，深深地吸引着我。我好像看见了世界上最美的一双眼睛。我当下好想抱着她，但她却忙着跑向反老鼠的一方因为她真的好怕老鼠。

I m using Engrish not English

Some of you might start to wonder had I lost the ability to write in English judging by how frequent I used Chinese to blog in my entries for the past 2 months. Fret no more, here I am writing in words that my beloved mom can actually read and understand (so long as she stop complaining bout her son's awful grammar).

Despite the fact that I am still 8 months away from finishing my course and 2 final exam in between, I often wonder what is like to be working and be financially independent (the perfect world situation la, I know that in reality: you never earn enough to be financially independent). I don't really think about the salary most of the time, but I do look forward to lots of work, bonding with your co-worker/supervisor/office gossiper, and no assignments.

95% of my mate who is working have been telling me that being a student is the best thing you can have and 80% out of this 95% of people dislike the fact that they are working class now. I come up with 3 possible conclusions:

1. Working really suck. Not that studying is awesome, but working suck so much that it makes study cool, maybe.
2. I mix with a bunch of people who simply dislike working.
3. The working friends are missing the holidays a lot.
   

But still, wouldn't it be inconsiderate of you guys to tell me working is shit when I m so looking forward to graduate and earn my own first pay check? I am a dreamer, don't let the cold harsh reality bang me in the head first.

As for my conclusion, I think I need to work for a while before I can make up my mind.