再见还是很爱你

最近爱上了周杰伦的“说了再见”。

那一句 “我假装过去不重要，却发现自己办不到”让我好难释怀。

可是再次拥抱一分一秒又能如何？多一分的不舍，多一秒的回忆能有什么好？

好想告诉你那一秒很接近死亡的瞬间，脑海里闪过的都是你的画面；但那过后又能怎样？

注定不是你的就不可能是你的，叶家铭呀，不好这样傻傻的。十五岁时可能人家会觉得可爱，到了二十三岁就是不成熟啦。

原来过分乐天派真的是很可怜，因为当不如意的事情发生后都不懂的如何反应。唯一可以庆幸的是我不再需要问自己如果我再勇敢一点结局会如何？

好难过呀因为我太傻了。

click click click

Is the time of the month again where I will take my calculator out and start punching imaginary figure. I dunno why I do it, but I do notice I have this silly obsession with doing compound interest equation with my calculator.

Since I am in my final semester, it only make sense if I start to think about how much is my salary for the first job. Lol.

According to the current job market speculation, is very much likely that I will be getting around RM2000.
If i work my ass off and the boss is impressed with my performance, let's say on consistently basic I get an increment of 10% for the next five year.

First year - 2200
Second year - 2420
Third year - 2662
Forth year - 2928
Fifth year - 3221

I only get salary of 3k when i m close to being 30. Omg. FML please. And since I oledi took out my calculator, i thought it might worth my time to do a prediction on how much do I get to save from that 5 years.

just to be realistic and conventional,20% of each month salary means I will get to save less than 35k in five years time. There goes my plan to get a Polo Golf....... zZzzZz

some wise word from Dude A

Will you leave it to fate when you lose all your faith?

Dude A says that I am too emotional unstable and get pissed easily. FYI, Dude A is one person that I am closest to before I went to Sarawak in pursuit of my degree.

I remember we used to do almost everything together. Have we really grow apart? Or he just can't take my sarcasm anymore? I feel that somehow he seems to be more uptight and less humor.

I think Dude A is emo-prone as well, just that I didn't have the heart to point it directly to his face. Lol.

Face lift

Decided to give my blog a little bit of face lift. Not really little as you can see 90% of the background has changed.

It doesn't have any sort of "wow" factor because I just simply choose a template from the website.

I love the background picture a lot though, I think Chinese calligraphy are those silent beauty that we take for granted.

In case you don't know, despite my constant presence on Facebook and MSN, I am actually quite busy with my lab work for my final year project.

下雨天，留客天

讨厌雨季！

把我这个本来就慵懒的人搞得更无精打采，就只想躲在被窝里打滚，美中不足的是被子不够暖。

早上醒来才发现没有任何的热饮可以冲，还真的有够郁闷的。

上课完毕走出讲堂，看着倾盆大雨可偏偏没有雨伞，无奈！！

好希望新年快点到，我需要热乎乎的气氛来暖暖我寒冷无趣的雨季。但我觉得到时候我一定会投诉天气好炎热，觉得自己有点难搞的。呵呵

just a thought

I know is too soon to talk about it, but I am struck by the thought of moving out and living alone. Not alone, more like away from parents.

Is just a thought right now, don't think is going to work out though. BECAUSE yours truly here is lazy, untidy, no income.

Maybe I should get my brother along? Then at least he can do most of the housework. Nah, that can only happen if I didn't strangle him first.

Ahuh, get an older GF with her own place. Lol, now I m getting a bit too dreamy.

二人世界

古巨基有首歌的开场第一句是：其实自己一个更开心，只等你讲

没有错，两个人如果在一段不愉快的恋爱中，还不如一个人活得自由精彩。

从来不曾有认真恋爱过的我还是相信快乐是最重要的，哪怕吃的，穿的，驾的都不比上其他人，单纯的快乐相处就足够了。

我一直不否认自己是个怕寂寞的人，就是这一股感觉让我很珍惜身边陪伴我的朋友。也因为这样我更特别想要一个谈得来的伴。

最棒的二人世界不是躲在房间里两个人单独相处，而是感觉到对方和你一样享受着彼此的存在且不比理会其他人投于异样的眼光。

全世界6亿人口，单单一个小如马来西亚的小国就有2千6百万人，要在茫茫人海中找到对的人不简单。在这么庞大的人群里，相识就已经是缘分，相爱更是需要感觉的酝酿，时间的配合，双方的包容。幸运的人可能很容易就能找到，勤劳的人可能经过多次的尝试和失败最终也开花结果了。容易受伤的人可能一次的失败就会被打败了。

我没有很容易的就找到适合的人，所以我不是幸运的人。

我也没有多次尝试的经验，所以我也不是勤劳的人。

我更没有因为一两次的失败而气馁，我想我不是容易受伤的人？

我只是一个深深爱着她的人，一个只要听听她声音就会很快乐的人，一个看见她傻傻的表情就会身不由自地笑起来的人。

人因为贪心而把很多东西都搞砸了，因此我学会了知足。

人因为怀疑而把很多事情都变复杂了，因此我选择了相信。

人因为怕受伤害而选择不要尝试，因此我决定要勇敢的爱。

我因为你而感到无比的快乐，所以我也很希望你能够一样的快乐。

7491,不要再犹豫了，敢敢去吧。

8002，7491不适合你的啦，还是把心机放在工作上吧，呵呵