Monday, June 28, 2010

你身边有没有朋友是你特别喜欢向他倾诉你的问题的?

我发现我真的很喜欢聆听别人的故事,无论是快乐或悲伤的,我都会去细心的听清楚。能给以意见的,我都不会吝啬;当然有时帮不上忙,我也会有点沮丧。

我想有两个原因我会喜欢这么做。

其一是我能从中得到存在感。因为有人需要我的耳朵和意见让我觉得起码自己对社会还有少许的贡献,哈哈,我是怪咔吧?

其二或许听起来有点像自我在搞伟大,不过这真的是我的想法:我明白人在难过时,如果没有人能聆听他的问题,他会感到非常无助,甚至会有点绝望,所以只要在我的能力范围内我都会去帮他。可能是我本身无法得到别人的耳朵和肩膀,所以我有一种使命感(臭屁啦)要去阻止同样的悲剧(好夸张)发生在朋友身上。

所以,妈咪请体谅我吧。

Sunday, June 27, 2010

我真的真的很累!

人说哀莫大于心死。

Monday, June 21, 2010

平凡比特出难

平凡简单,突然好想抱着这4个字到梦乡去。

回想起以前小些的时候,喜欢一个人是多么美好的一件事。偷偷的张望着心仪的对象,有点担心她会不会突然看过来,暗地里又很渴望两人的眼神能碰到。

现在长大了,胆子是比较大了,但要顾虑的东西也越来越多。喜欢一个人反而变成一种折磨,美好的东西变质了, 付出的回报竟然是心痛和失望,还有数不清的不悦和无奈。

我怀念过去单纯的我,如果长大的代价是失去平凡,我情愿不曾长大,起码我可以简简单单地过我的生活。

讽刺的是当人人都在追求机会来特出自己的时候,我竟然只想要普通朴实。好想好想再一次傻傻地喜欢一个人。

此时此刻,一句发自内心的问候变成了我不能负担的奢侈品,一只温软的小手就象天上的星星般遥不可及。
Please dun say that I have abandon you.

I once make such accusation in the past and I really regretted it. I hope you will not make the same mistake as mine.

You know that you are more than just a good friend to me, in fact, if i ever have a GF in the future, she will not know me better than you do.

Can we just go back to how we were back then?

Saturday, June 19, 2010

I seriously need to have goals in my life.

I m growing more and more restless because of not having anything to achieve in my life.

I know I need to have something yet I dunno what I want for now.

Can some1 help me out? Just a little suggestion to kick start my ass

Tuesday, June 15, 2010

Is really ironic how sometimes a person that you like the most, the most compatible together with is never your partner in life.

People always say that so long as you put in your effort, then you will have nothing to regret bout. But endless disappointment can be quite sad, and slowly you will start to have less faith and even less hope. Hope is for people who have strong believe, not those emotional unstable people like me.

So instead of hoping something to happen, I am now taking action and make things happen. Wish me luck eh!

Saturday, June 5, 2010

请珍惜

我还以为只有艺人被人消费来获得利益,博取知名度,可是我错了。

其实也不是没有预感的,只是不停地催眠并告诉自己:是自己敏感罢了,不好胡思乱想,搞得大家都不欢而散。

但再笨的人都会有一天清醒,狠狠地掌掴自己,要自己去面对事实。或许我真的不能像伟人那样不计较付出,一直奉献;因为我不是伟人。

你再也没有资格忽然传我一则短讯问我为何没有与你联系。

你更没有资格要求我做你的司机,你的闹钟,你的发泄对象。

因为你让我好失望。你让我看清:一个人若不回珍惜你,那是因为他不值得你对他的好;就算你不再对他好,他也不会怀念。

Wednesday, June 2, 2010

still emo

Your ex become your ex because he/she was never the right person for you. He/She will remain as a distant memory of your past because they don't belong in the future with you.

You need to be strong and toughen up, you will meet a better lover.

You need to start moving on now, he/she is doing alright since the break up.


These are the most common line that you might get from your friend who is trying to make you feel better. No break up are easy. Break up can be ugly, nasty, draggy, silently (as in one side just choose to vanish into thin air and not picking your call anymore), but never easy.

Moving on are equally tough.

You can tell the whole world that you moved on, you can even be in a new relationship with someone hu seems to be lot better than your previous bf/gf. But beneath all the happy smile, you still thought of he/she a lot.

You go around telling how much you hate him/her for cheating on you, for breaking your heart but somehow you know very well that you still care a lot bout them.

You can get all your friend to cheer you up, take all their advices, go for some sort of escapade and get drunk, but in the end you need to really forgive before you can forget. It will be all yourself, no matter how many good friend you have to support you, it will be all down to you.

I never doubted that I give all my support to my friends who needed them, I gave my 110% for them. But I know sometimes that is just not enough for them, they need to give their 110% as well.

So please don't hope that I can endlessly support you, because even Superman need to rest and make love with Lois Lane, Spiderman need to earn his living by working as a newspaper photographer.

I don't want to feel that way, but you are making me starting to doubt that all my effort is going down the drain.