迷失公园一日游

居安思危好像从来就不是我做人的态度。我觉得我都是活在危险地带然后幻想如果我走安全路线的结果会是怎样呢？

可能这就是现代都市人的无奈吧，活在五色六光的霓虹下，一切的是非对错都不是黑白那么清楚笃定。好多以前我认为是对的事情，我现在已经不能了解了；不少我以往认为是错的事情，我却好像越来越频密地做着。

我好像迷失了自己，可能我高估了自己的能力，我以为我可以一个人闯入迷宫，解开一连串的谜题，任凭一股大无畏的精神打倒守护着高塔的飞龙，最后把公主求出赢得美人归。现实中，我是个不能落单的人，没有过人的智慧，更生来一副胆小怕事的性格。

我人生中最让我自豪的是我对身边朋友的真诚，如果那一天我连这一点都丧失了，我想我真的是彻彻底底地失败了。不过感到欣慰的是，此时此刻的我还有几个靠得住的朋友。

i get crappy mark for my essay

is not an encouraging week for me, at least academic wise, is unexpectedly bleak. Unless I had suffer from a severe concussion, is very unlikely you will hear that I am going to further my study. Mommy, I hope you read this. :p

I have been lying on my bed a lot, to the point that I am impressed with how less movement I make in a whole day and yet I am not dead by my bed. I guess is good in the sense that I am actually spending less by doing less activity. Should I had discover this method long long time ago, I am now a love-deprived with some money, instead of being broke and out of love. HaHa.

Is kinda funny how I always thought that I have my future plan work out only to discovered that life is really unpredictable and I don't even know who am I. Maybe is not really funny, more like stupid or dumb due to the fact that you control every part of your body and mind yet you don't know who you are? How much dumber can it get?

On a happier note, I get to sleep much easier now.

人不为己，天诛地灭也

从来都不是个自私的人，不过过去的一个星期，我好想自私的占有某某人。但心里好像有一道正气在告诉着我，这样是不对的。

之前还埋怨S君不能拿定主意，现在竟然是我在犹豫不定。想来妈妈真的把我教导的不错，做任何的决定都会考虑事情的好坏，从中做出好的决定。

多年来不断地做出道德伦理上对的决定并没有给我任何好的回报。是不是我应该自私一次呢？自己的快乐如果不争取，难道天会掉下来给你吗？

阿喵，快快给我一些意见。

o ohhhhh~~~~ time to go back lo, steel design will be my only mate there.

Thank god I am going back, I am not sure how can I come up with more money if I continue to spend on outing like how I did on the past 15 days.

But I dun nid a rich wife to support me. I just need to have better control of my spending. Lol

time to stop?

You can take away his toys, his TV remote, his favorite sneaker, but you should never take away your love. Coz that is just not the way to punish a person or make your statements heard.

Even though sometimes things you do and sacrifice in the name of love is not appreciated the way you want it to be, or worst still, people take for granted and thought that you have the obligation to be nice to them and treat them like queen or king; you shouldn't just stop loving so easily.

This kind of advise is really plain dumb and shouldn't be taken seriously at all. There are about 6.9 billions people living on earth, you will never have enough love for everyone. So if that person dun appreciate your love at all, you might as well give it to someone else.

Stop thinking that by doing so makes you a mean and heartless person, you are being mean to yourself if you try to fool yourself that someday that person is going to change his/her mind and treat you better in the future. They won't, no matter how hard you hope or how bad you pray, they won't wake up 1 day and appreciate you suddenly.

It sucks to be me right now, as much as I want to take all my love away, I just can't do it no matter how I try to convince myself.

当鲜红的玫瑰慢慢变成深朱红色,你还是否愿意把它摆在桌上日夜对着它呢?

花瓣一片片的凋零，枯萎的玫瑰花蕊赤裸裸地出现在你眼前，你能接受如此丑陋的一面吗？

多么美丽鲜艳的玫瑰都会有凋谢的那么一天，也会有被抛弃的一天。

当它躺在菊花与茉莉之间，它是否有预测这一天的到来？它还会自视过高而不愿与现在同样命运的邻居交谈吗？

如果把现代的爱情比喻成玫瑰是同时符合又不恰当的； 现代的爱情像玫瑰那样美丽但短暂，像玫瑰那样让人垂咽却又担心被它的刺刺痛。

但不同与玫瑰的是，枯萎的爱情不能够就这样扔进垃圾桶里。