不吐不快

谁说一醉解千愁？

又何人说举杯消愁愁更愁？

我说一醉满身伤，举杯消愁脑蒙蒙。

其实消愁是骗人的，你只不过借用酒精来跟你的脑袋玩障眼法。当酒精占领了你的思维和判断力时，你不只忘记你的烦恼，你也把快乐悲伤和肚子里的食物一并地抛开。

okla, 你不可能可以把你的快乐悲伤呕出，不过那短暂的时刻，你真的是不会被任何不愉快的记忆打扰。你脑海里就只希望你可以不要再吐了；但是又有一种不吐不快的感觉。

没有任何的特别原因想喝醉，就纯粹要跟自己的身体过不去。哈哈，觉得我好变态吗？
我想去感受那种不舒服的感觉，好让自己可以更珍惜平时活在平淡舒适的生活。
想用喝醉的记忆提醒自己不要浪费清醒的时光。
更想去亲身体验举杯消愁愁更愁的意境。呵呵。

我还在醉吗？也许吧，可能我本来就一直在醉着，这七个月来都是。是时候喝杯解醉茶了吗？

you can't measure love like how you sized a penis

How soon is too soon?

Is 1 month too soon? Is 3 month too soon? How about half a year? A year?

Was a bit shocked to found out a friend of mine who I always see as a typical gaming nerd hiding in his dorm room got himself a girl friend in the span of 2 months industry training. Then the-forever-smart Mr. Tan says: Remember bout you and the gal working for the promoter job? Was it less than a month?

Oh wtf, I totally forgotten bout that.

See, there are no such thing as too soon or too long when comes to developed affection toward a person. Some take years, like a good old whisky; while others claimed to be sort of like love at first sight.

Sometimes the fondness come in the form of a giant tsunami, carrying you to an uncharted area with no warning. It can also take shape of small calm wave by the shoreline, gently caressing your feet.

So dun worry bout what the rest of the world tell you, you can move on when you are ready to move on. If you are not, you can take all the time you need to ready yourself.

What's the fun of doing something if you know that outcome of it from the beginning? That is why leap of faith is so much more exciting. Ms Quek just took 1 herself, and now I wonder when will I be doing so too?

你知道吗？

有些人无论你花多少时间和他交谈，你都不会腻，你也不会觉得他烦。因为他已经成为你的一部分。

有些歌曲就算你听了500遍，你也还想再听500遍。因为它曾经陪伴你度过无数个失眠的夜晚。

有些话你天天都向他说，但你还是觉得你没有说够。因为你害怕有一天你不再可以告诉他了。

有些事情你一直在做，不过你永远不会觉得苦闷。因为你喜欢这么做。

有些坏习惯你从小就懂是不好的，可是你没有想去改掉。因为十全十美的人太恐怖了，你还想保留一些人性。

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我们曾经天天形影不离，天天一起上课，一起被训话。不过那都只是曾经。那些事情都只能回顾，或许你没有像我这般地去怀念它们，但我相信偶尔你会想起那些日子。

可能以前你只有我做伴；现在你多了同事，旧同学新朋友。
可能我改变了太多，你不能适应这样的我，所以我们不能相处的很愉快。
又可能是你也变了，我却硬硬要你回到过去似，因此我们不断争吵。

人因为长大了，就会变复杂；我希望看见复杂的你背后的倒影是成熟的，而不是怪异孤僻的。
我答应你我会尽我所能让你看见我友善可亲的一面，不过这是需要时间的。

我希望听到你开始多一些说：好，我要。 因为你现在都只会说：no, thank you.

se7en

Just watched Se7en, again. Is not that I am bored, but is because the movie was simply awesome. I know Morgan Freeman has spoiled tonnes of movie, he is still doing his prank right now, but I actually like Morgan in Se7en.

And Brad Pitt is in the movie too. How I miss Brad? Inglorious Basterd (last year) was pretty enjoyable but is nowhere as good as Se7en(1995) or Fight Club (1999, if i m not mistaken). Is not hard to admit that he is indeed very yummy looking. More reason to hate Angelina, i guess.

The movie is themed on 7 deadly sins of man:

1. gluttony
2. greed
3. sloth
4. lust
5. pride
6. envy
7. wrath

How many of this 7 deadly sins you are actually possessing? I have never been a bad person, but I might have to watchful when I sleep tonight, just in case Kevin Spacey, who played the distorted psycho killer pay me a visit.

I have yet to watch Inception, despite the whole FB is flooded with rave from almost everyone, I doubt it will be as good as Cashback.

Heineken fuelled dream

Is not common for me to remember things vividly without tiny bits of details lost, and is just as hard as for me to have dream.

So imagine how happy I am that I can actually recall the dream I had yesterday. I am happy that I can remembered it, but I am actually confused with the dream itself.

I was helping in the shop that I previously worked in, but I am not actually paid to work in the dream. I volunteered to help out. Everyone is in the shop except that one person that matters more wasn't there.

But instead of packing product of the shop, I am actually dealing with floppy disk (which is somehow relate to this one time when I help my friend to put CD in cover), who on earth use floppy disk now anyway?

Then someone's phone rang. That someone pick up the phone and start talking. Then she look at me, pause a while, and told the other end: Your ex-bf is here, you wanna come?

She hung up the phone and says: she will only come over earliest by October.

and then the dream end. Fade into total blackness.

I am not sure what is it about? But could it be telling me that I shouldn't look backward and look forward instead?

你可以听听吗？

你可以用很多时间去准备，去计划，但你不能预测意外，你也不能逆天而行。因为天意，最后我连“補插”都不能带走。

注定了就是注定了，何苦顽强地要作对？ 因为作对，搞得关心自己的人都不愉快。

争取过，努力过就真的不会有遗憾吗？我争取过，但是我落得一肚子的不满意和无助。

坚持是勇敢和毅力的表现，还是愚蠢和顽固的写照？ 你的坚持让我好辛苦，我却莫名的觉得你好有性格。

expectation

朋友说人因为有了期望而把人与人之间的关系搞砸了。

如果没有期望就不会因为得不到而失望，不会失望而变得闷闷不乐。

当闷闷不乐时，小小的不如意都会被放大。放大的小不如意就会堆积起来，慢慢形成了一座火山，长期处于一触即发的状态。

但是没有了期望就可以把问题都避免了吗？

合理的期望是好的，我是这般的见解。期望好比喻成目标，换另一个发式去看待期望: 至少有期望表示你知道你想要什么，你不再需要费时费神的去思索你要的是什么。

有了你的期望，对方不再苦苦猜测。你的期望就变成了一个指南，引导对方，帮他了解你的需求。

期望的好坏在于本身的拿捏，如果你以中庸的心态去期望，相信会是百利而无一害的

你说你学会不要有所期望，我觉得是你忘了期望的快乐，你选择了不期望。

没有值得期望的恋爱方式，你会快乐吗？

注：我没有“意默”，我只是写下我的想法。

我想起了我小时候最喜欢的活动就是说故事。

应该是我重新找回我儿时的快乐啦

离开不是逃离

最近我都好像很迷惘，时常搞不清楚自己到底要什么，又不要些什么。

前几天坐在戏院里，情侣座是没有中间的armrest的，可是我可以感觉到我们之间隔了何止一片海，忽然想起原来我们来看这部电影是因为你觉得你需要禰补我，你想要为你之前的过错补偿，难怪坐在身边的你好像敷衍似的看着电影。

当晚的零交流和电影结束后你迫不及待的要离开，迟钝的我现在才明白为什么。
我还特地穿的比较隆重的，好可笑呀。

虽然我喜欢潮起的快感，但很无奈的，我不能面对潮落时的失落。或许我和你一样都是比较适合在没有任何浪潮的地方漫游。

直道七月一号的晚上8时30分，我才明白原来我需要的是决心。开着空调，坐在被雨水打湿的车竟然还比你对我的冷漠还来得更暖。你的无视让我有了离开的决心。

我还是老话一句：我不要求公平对待，我只需要真诚的关心。能陪伴你度过低落的时期，其实我也一样渴望你会分享你的快乐。